Some random thoughts:

-it is never too late to be a great writer but remember Sontag-like you have to be deadly serious and pretend to yourself something or other is important.
- it wasn't till I turned 50 that I realized I was deluding myself and was au fond a proletarian in the Marxist sense of not owning a scrap of the means of production. All that education crap was just that -- obfuscatory bullshit to silence intellectuals...or smart people.
- you can rise above prole financial status if you have Mosbacherian or Pamelaharringtonian focus on turning on men by being a vamp. (How tedious)
- I threw away Alistair Cooke's book in Asheville NC because it was too heavy to carry and the bland rationality of this lucky-focused- man gave me an inferiority complex